Tempting FATE
I just
turned 25 this year. It's an important milestone in one's life. It's when a
sense of maturity hits you (or at least the world expects it). It's that time
in life when you start wondering "What Next?" Generally the thoughts
would be “Either I need to do my Masters so that it helps my career or I jump
to a high(er) paying job so that I can be financially stable by the time I turn
27-28”.
These thoughts still persist in my mind and believe me
thinking about these for a long duration can drive you nuts. Higher education’s
damn too costly and I am not the greatest fan of taking loans. Add to that the
pressure of constructing a house in the next year or 2, it just doesn’t make
sense. Having already jumped twice in my career in 3 years, jumping to a new
company might hurt me in the long run. I’m enjoying the responsibility at my
current job, but the hikes the current job promises scares me. I work for a
small start-up who pays salaries from revenues earned and right now our
revenues don’t make for a good figure.
Too much running in my mind, you think?? I wish these were
the only worries; I could manage them any day. But there’s a bigger, sillier
yet scarier nightmare in my head driving me and few others like me nuts. Wanna
know what it is? Read on..
I come from a semi-orthodox Brahmin family. Growing up, I
had few elder cousins whose marriage alliances weren’t going as expected. In both
cases, the girls ditched my brothers for their lovers; this after committing to
the marriage. Naturally, aunts and grandmothers were always saying to our ears –
don’t believe girls of your generation; stay away from girls from your class;
they’ll fool you; they’ll spin a web around you and trap you and many more such
concocted stories would be fed to me. I grew up to become an obedient son/grandson/nephew
and kept girls at a safe distance. But the world around has changed so much
over these past few years!! Inter-caste marriages, love marriages and live-in
relationships are the norm. I’ve had loads of marriages to attend this season
and it’s all love marriages.. Guys getting married at 25! Really feel happy for
friends that they are getting to choose their partners and are not being forced
to go through the interviews of arranged marriages ;-)
But where does all this leave me? Having told myself that i’ll
go for the traditional arranged marriage, I see nightmares now – no girls
around to marry: D. I’ve always wanted to marry a girl from our community,
which is pretty small. I have a cousin, 3 years elder to me, whose mom is
finding it really tough to find decent girls around. The decent ones don’t have
the jataka/kundli matching. My parents have already relaxed their conditions – “if
you really want to go out there and find yourself a girl, make sure she’s a
Brahmin”, they say.. It’s much easier said than done. Inter-caste marriages
have their own problems, even if it’s Shivites v/s Vaishnavites. I’ve seen an
ex-colleague have problems with in-laws even before her marriage. And with my
less than average looks(it’s debatable) , I feel I have a better shot at an
arranged marriage.
Ideally at 25, I shouldn’t even be thinking about this. I am
supposed to have a good 2 years of independent life J . But sometimes, when I’m lonely
I just can’t stop thinking about this stuff. The only thing that I can do is
earn some good money in the meanwhile and tempt fate expecting it to be good to
me..